A zillion thoughts per minute....

So today after work, I really thought my head was going to explode!  It was one of those times where you just get thinking about everything and can't stop.  Today at work I learned one of my good friends/only girlfriend/second mom is going to have her last day on the 30th.  She is a contractor and it was only so much time before her contract ended.  Luckily, she will still have a job so that is good.  It just sucks not having any girl friends to talk to at work.  Guys just don't understand the need to have small talk.  Seriously I have to pretend to be interested ice fishing to have a conversation with one of the guys, another I pretend to be interested in his farm equipment and the list just goes on from there.  Brenda, person getting laid off, was the one person I could go tell what was really on my mind and stupid random stuff like how I put my underwear on inside out that morning or how I totally pretended to get groceries I didn't need to follow these cute guys around the grocery store!  Somehow, I just can't see telling the guys at work that stuff.  So I guess this was kind of the kickoff of what to expect for the upcoming year.  Just like almost everywhere else in the US, we are starting to let contractors go and then it is only time before retiree packages and then us.  I think I should be good but who knows!  Although I will gladly keep my job, it just won't be the same working without the people that actually make my job enjoyable!  I finally felt like I had a good group of people to hang out with and things were going well and now everything is changing.....I guess that is how life goes! 

Then we have the whole issue of dating! lol Wow how I hate dating!  I'm still trying out eharmony and that has its ups and downs.  I've been hanging out with the one guy who seems pretty great but just not sure the chemistry is there.  I so wish it was because he even has the same couch as I do except a dark brown color!  So you know that is a sign it is meant to be, haha!  Sometimes I think I really like him and other times I just wonder if I like the idea of him.  The idea of having someone there to talk to, to call me, to want me and not so much the idea of him as my boyfriend.  Plus it really doesn't help that I have no idea what I'm doing with all this dating stuff.  And I won't even get into the whole issue about what happens if he tries to kiss me and I have my AWESOME retainer in!  There are a few other guys I've been talking with through eharmony but it seems like so many of them are too scared to move the relationship off of the computer but aren't the guys suppose to be the one to make the moves instead of me!   Anyways, stayed tuned because I am sure there is a good retainer story coming up in the near future! lol (oh if you haven't seen facebook, I finally got my braces off!!! So frickin excited!!  Now if only the retainer was gone...hmmmm)